Mixed emotions

I’m passing requirements tomorrow over at the Korean Embassy.

I must admit, that I have mixed feelings about this. For one, I’m worried and frightened that I won’t get a Visa. Worried that I spent the past ten months saving and thinking, just to have it taken away from me. Frightened of what I’ll do when I don’t get it. Frightened of what I’ll do if I do get it.

Then there’s the excitement. What if I get it? What if I’m finally going to Korea after 10 months of being on the edge? What if I’m finally going after six years of wanting?

The only thing I’m sure of is that I’ll definitely try again if I don’t get it. But please please please let me have it. Please let everything go my way. If it’s not meant to be this year, that’s okay. But the waterworks will come, and I’ll most likely mope around. Then I’ll try again.

I will definitely try again.